mixed emotions

So a friend told me I should start on of these...why not?

I would have to say that this week has been one of the most difficult ones I've been through: my really good friends moved away, I'm roommateless (it's a word now, trust me lol) for EFY, and I just recently found out that one of my close relatives won't be around much longer. Everything just seems to keep adding to the pile and its going to take me a while to sift through it.

And here's something I don't get...Why is it that when someone I really care about is going through a rough time and they don't make the greatest choices, why do they push me away when all I want to do is be there for them and help them? Do they think I will just walk away from them and want nothing more to do with them because they made wrong decisions? Because I won't and would never think about doing it because I love them too much. I'm sick of the goody-two shoes appearance people seem to think I radiate. I'm not gonna go run off and become a problem child because of that, but i just want everyone to know that I'm not perfect either!! So how could I judge you and all of your wrongdoings when I'm not perfect? ...And it hurts, it really does hurt to think that I might not see them again even though I've tried countless times to stay in touch...I don't even know anymore.

Yeah so thats just a little of what I'm feeling right now... Tomorrow should be fun though, its the start of EFY!!