It's Hard But Then Again It's Not...

It's been a year or so since I've said goodbye to two people that I loved dearly and now life threatens to leave another one soon. It's hard, yes, but it is extremely comforting knowing that this isn't the end. I'll be able to see them again and they won't be in so much pain. The hard part for me is that I'm so far away. I can't be there right now and I wish that they knew how much I want to be. It's also hard because I haven't seem them for about a year I think...and I can't help but wonder if this time around it's my fault that I'm not there right now. I know they have loved ones with them right now and I'm grateful for that...I'm just going to miss seeing them. Miss their words of wisdom. Miss the visits to their house and the delicious dinners. I guess that's why memories can be so bittersweet sometimes. I'm going to cherish mine though, and hope for greater ones in the future.

Love you Aunt Marcie.

New Post, New Me...

So before I left on all of my excursions this summer I was lazy. I complained when I had to go to work and getting exercise and working out, uh heck no. I did every once in a while and it was such a struggle. My days consisted of sleeping in, hanging out, on the computer, movies, and staying up way late. Dumb in my book. After all of the traveling and then finally getting back in to Provo, I was ready to change that. I think just the change of attitude sparked the desire to do things. So here is my life now:



I lift Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I do yoga on Mondays and then do an assortment of running on Monday, Wednesday, Friday.

I'm trying to eat healthier than I ever have in my life.

I'm working more, which is fine because I need the money, and when I do work I love it...for the most part, haha. Some days work is rough and I just don't want to be there and then there are some people I deliver to that just make my day. It's crazy what little things can do for people. But yes, that is my life now and I'm SO much happier than before. A huge plus is that I still have time to do fun things like hang out with my friends, hike, watch movies, go mini golfing and such. Another huge plus is that I'm starting to like running again. Anyone that knows me knows I hate it because of high school track and what my coach did to me, but I'm slowly starting to like it again. I'm actually having the desire to go running on my own and pushing myself to get in shape. That's a big goal of mine. To be in good shape for rugby this next fall. We'll see how it goes :)