Struggling...

This semester has been THE hardest one I've had thus far. Who knew getting into your major would be so time demanding and frustrating! I have super early classes everyday, I have clinical that eats up three or more hours of my life everyday, there is no space for me in my classes for my major next semester, I don't know if I should take spring or summer classes, I don't know my assignment yet for next semester and I need to in order to prepare my classes, hardly any of my classes really interest me all that much, I'm tired all the time, rugby takes up a good portion of my life as well, I'm out of town a lot for rugby, I currently am working diddly squat at Sports Authority and not making very much, I have a lot of expenses regardless...the list could seriously go on and on as to why this semester is so rough.

But here's the thing! I wouldn't trade any of it and here's why. I love the people that are in my semester of my major. We got along so well and so fast and we love helping each other out. I love my clinical assignment now and the girls that I get to hang out with everyday. My instructor is also really good at teaching us new things so it hardly gets boring. I also get free clothes from it so who can complain about that? I LOVE LOVE rugby and would never trade it for anything. I often think about what my life would be like if I had never joined and I can honestly say it would have been boring and sucked. Well, ok it wouldn't have sucked but it would have been bland. My job at Sports Authority has been one of the greatest jobs I've had thus far. I wish I could work there more and make the money that I need to, but I'm ok with it right now. I'm glad I kept the job there so that I could work more if I wanted to, and when I want to. The people there are so fun and great that it doesn't even matter that I'm making a half hour commute to work. Earlier I listed off a bunch of really negative things about this semester that have been driving me crazy, but really they are all blessings in my life. I know that if I just put all my trust in the Lord that things will work out. Everything happens for a reason right? Sure does :)

So a quick everyday life update...This last weekend my team and I traveled to Palo Alto, CA to play in a rugby 10's tournament. There were two pools so we entered two teams to see how good we could do and to gain more experience for everyone. We played some really good teams and had a lot of fun. I went in a lot as scrumhalf and it was AWESOME!! I got a few good hits on people, and they got a few on me haha. Even a nice try zone pole got a good hit on me! Anywho, so both of our teams were seeing a lot of success and doing really well. Turns out we did so well that we played each other in the championship game! Haha. So basically we went to Stanford, handed them a good butt whooping game (47-7 loss for them) and then turned around and took first and second at THEIR tournament. haha. It was a great feeling. So yeah, it was a very successful weekend for both teams. Our second team consisted of a lot of our new girls and they did SO well!! I was so impressed with how they played and held their own. I'm so proud of them!
This past Tuesday I had the opportunity to see Lady Antebellum in concert with my friend Janelle! It. Was. Awesome!!! They are such good performers and sound so good live. The girl in the group has some interesting (questionable?) dance moves and we loved to make fun haha, but it was seriously so good. We got there pretty early so we ended up pretty close to the stage, but we had to stand there for hours!!! Playing go fish/war/games you make up while standing can get interesting haha. At one point in time, Janelle left to go to the bathroom and I stayed to save our spots in the crowd. While there, the girls standing to my right got into a fight! It was so funny...but not at the same time. Fighting is wrong. Haha anyways, the girl in the front was mad because she felt like the girl behind her was pushing her and it got all heated, f words were flying, there was a little pushing, but that was it. No fists today! It made for an interesting evening though. To add to the evening, as we were trying to leave the venue and get to our car, we realized we couldn't...because there was a train blocking our way! Somehow and for some reason a train just stopped on the tracks and we had to wait a little bit for it to start up and move off the road. It was great.

Still alive...

I can barely believe it but I've managed to stay alive through this past month of school. Between work, rugby, school, clinical, and the tiny moments of eating and sleeping I was wearing myself out. Every sparing second I was doing something that NEEDED to be done. These past few weeks I realized I needed a change in my life or my grades were going straight down the poop shute. So I had to cut something out, and unfortunately work is at the bottom of my necessary list. I had full intentions of just quitting at Sports Authority, but the managers and I decided to try something out. So currently I am still employed there but I'm only working there a night a week. Hopefully this frees me up enough to bring my sanity back...

In other news...My coach switched me to play scrumhalf which is kind of like the quarterback in football. Yeah, talk about the scariest position I've ever played! My first game playing is tomorrow so we'll see how that goes...

BUSY!!

I can't believe how incredibly busy life has gotten since school started two weeks ago. Let me get you a little updated on my life since the last post...

I finally quit Domino's and got a job at Sports Authority in South Jordan!!! I love it there and the commute isn't even that bad. Way better than Domino's for sure. The people there are way nice and I've gotten the hang of cashiering I think. Then school started and with that came rugby!! We had our first game on Saturday and we won, but it was super ugly! We will probs die in practice today because of it but hey, we gotta learn sometime. School is going alright. I'm trying my hardest to get everything to fit in my life so it's been a little hectic. My classes are going good for the most part and my clinical is awesome!! My instructor is so nice and loves to give us opportunities to learn and grow in this field. It's going to be great! I can just feel it :)

In other news, my computer is retarded currently and likes to freeze on my when I'm trying to use it or the internet, so that's why there are no pictures and why I don't get on here that much anymore. Alrighty, well I'm out!

Stuck...

Yes. I am currently stuck. Where you might ask? In my best friend, Pam's, clubhouse at her housing complex. Why you might ask? Well it's simple...

I wanted to work out and they have a wonderful facility in their clubhouse for me to use. So I borrow their card key and get into the building before the doors all lock officially at midnight. If I get in before that though, I can stay in here as long as I want. So I get in the weight room (which I have to use the card key to get in there as well) and run for 15 minutes, do abs, and then start to lift weights. I go outside the room to get a drink and take the card with me. When I try to get back in there, the door is locked. Are you freaking kidding me?! They didn't tell me that door would lock at midnight as well! And why would it? It's inside the stupid building, so why would someone be able to break into that if they can't even get into the building? Needless to say I was ticked at first because not only was I locked out of finishing my work out, but all of my stuff is stuck in the weight room...like my phone...my ipod...everything!

So here I am now trying to pass the time until 8 am the next morning. Played four games of pool, watched shark week and whose line is it anyways, and am using their computers up to this point. I'll tell you how the rest of the visit goes :)

It's Hard But Then Again It's Not...

It's been a year or so since I've said goodbye to two people that I loved dearly and now life threatens to leave another one soon. It's hard, yes, but it is extremely comforting knowing that this isn't the end. I'll be able to see them again and they won't be in so much pain. The hard part for me is that I'm so far away. I can't be there right now and I wish that they knew how much I want to be. It's also hard because I haven't seem them for about a year I think...and I can't help but wonder if this time around it's my fault that I'm not there right now. I know they have loved ones with them right now and I'm grateful for that...I'm just going to miss seeing them. Miss their words of wisdom. Miss the visits to their house and the delicious dinners. I guess that's why memories can be so bittersweet sometimes. I'm going to cherish mine though, and hope for greater ones in the future.

Love you Aunt Marcie.

New Post, New Me...

So before I left on all of my excursions this summer I was lazy. I complained when I had to go to work and getting exercise and working out, uh heck no. I did every once in a while and it was such a struggle. My days consisted of sleeping in, hanging out, on the computer, movies, and staying up way late. Dumb in my book. After all of the traveling and then finally getting back in to Provo, I was ready to change that. I think just the change of attitude sparked the desire to do things. So here is my life now:



I lift Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I do yoga on Mondays and then do an assortment of running on Monday, Wednesday, Friday.

I'm trying to eat healthier than I ever have in my life.

I'm working more, which is fine because I need the money, and when I do work I love it...for the most part, haha. Some days work is rough and I just don't want to be there and then there are some people I deliver to that just make my day. It's crazy what little things can do for people. But yes, that is my life now and I'm SO much happier than before. A huge plus is that I still have time to do fun things like hang out with my friends, hike, watch movies, go mini golfing and such. Another huge plus is that I'm starting to like running again. Anyone that knows me knows I hate it because of high school track and what my coach did to me, but I'm slowly starting to like it again. I'm actually having the desire to go running on my own and pushing myself to get in shape. That's a big goal of mine. To be in good shape for rugby this next fall. We'll see how it goes :)

The Bear With Me Post...

Sorry for the late updates...


SO I left off at the first few days in Hawaii...I've got to remember now all the things we did in order!! Haha. Jenny took me on an awesome walk around Laie and I was able to see the Temple and BYU-H campus, as well as the famous Hukilau Cafe right down the street! And she had me try a rice cake...not my favorite but not necessarily bad either!




Next on the list was Hale'iwa for the famous shaved ice at Matsumotos! It was a very long line and I had a super eager customer right behind me...the picture doesn't do it justice.




We then went to the Swap meet and got a few things including my much needed lifeguard shirt!! :) Then there were birthday festivities and the afternoon of PCC to attend where we ate Pineapple delight and saw the canoe show of all of the islands represented there. It was awesome!!! We went back another night and saw the night show which was just as awesome!



Over the next few days we did an assortment of activities like jumping off the Waimea rock, seeing the point, eating a lychee, hiking Diamond Head with Jarrett and Hannah, trying musabi --favorite one I tried!--, going to Kylee's swimming lessons, watching the Celtics vs. Lakers games--disappointing in the end--eating pineapple ice cream from the Dole plantation, eating at Kahuku Grill--yum!--going to the 50th State Fair, going to different beaches and playing with Kylee, trying a passionfruit and malasada, and the most important thing of all...hanging out with Jenny, Kylee, and Aaron.



I think my favorite part of the trip was having Kylee follow me to my room every time I went back there so she could jump on my bed or lay on my pillow. She would even knock on my door in the morning so I would let her in to do so. Miss it :)